My youngest child got his drivers license yesterday. That in a nutshell is what has triggered this seeking in my life, not being as needed in my primary role as mom. And what was funny is that the example used in my devotional was a mom’s connection to her children.

Details are Important

But first I have to share a funny or maybe more of an eye opening experience.

The verse referenced in my devotional was:

“I will answer them before they even call to me. While they are still talking about their needs, I will go ahead and answer their prayers.”

Isaiah 65:24

Awesome, right? Really relevant to my search and powerful no matter what stage of life you are at. But in my hurry and lack of paying attention, I turned to and read this verse in its place:

“And as they go out, they will see the dead bodies of those who have rebelled against me. For the worms that devour them will never die, and the fire that burns them will never go out. All who pass by will view them with utter horror.”

Isaiah 66:24

I have was utterly confused how my lesson on how God loves us and responds to us as a nursing baby could have anything to do with worms and burning. And then my second thought was, atheist must be really strong because if I even considered this as my fate for not believing or going against God, I would seek very thoroughly to be sure of my position.

That is not the conversation I want to have…but literally one page over in my Bible, God shows the difference in how He will love and treat those who believe and seek him and those that do not. I am really glad I opted for group A.

How He loves us

Back to my devotional and the lessons from this morning as I continue to seek my purpose during this next phase of life. The author says that God loves us and will not forget us any more than a mother could forget or neglect her nursing child. It has now been 15 years since I nursed a child, but I will never forget that connection.

Nor will I forget the pain when the connection was interrupted or delayed. I am not going to go into details but it is physically painful for a nursing mom when her child cries or it is time for feeding. An ache for which there is no relief other than to care for the child.

With that example in mind, it makes it much easier for me to understand God’s love and care for me. And worst of all…the ache He must feel when my desire or attention for Him is lacking.

The Action

According to Isaiah 65:24, we just need to ask and our needs will be met. Today, spend some time making a list of what your needs are…

For me, I need guidance in knowing what my purpose is now. And I need to understand this hole in my heart. Maybe it’s just that my five kids are quickly leaving the nest (two head off to college this fall, two moved out just a year ago and now my last one is starting to drive,) but I am feeling very lost.