When I woke this morning and began preparing for my day, I realized that although I am making a point to spend some time with God each morning with a devotional and my Bible. The rest of the day…well, I don’t think of it at all. He is definitely not my Right Hand as today’s devotion encouraged.
Don’t get me wrong occasionally, I will send up a prayer – a thanks or request. But I am certainly not revisiting my devotion more than one time in the morning. That kind of defeats the purpose, doesn’t it. Am I really learning and changing, if it’s a one and done kind of thing?
Am I really seeking to change and grow if I don’t even think about it the rest of the day? My gut response is a resounding No! But the reality is that I want to grow and change. And I am recognizing my faults and failures here. So how do I go about changing them?
I sat down at the beginning of today’s devotion and focused on the action step from a couple of days ago…asking God to reveal how He sees my character. I do not fully understand how He can do this as I am not one to receive visions or hear voices. Typically, I have to be hit over the head with a frying pan to get my attention. My life is just so noisy and I am REALLY GOOD at tuning things out. (Just ask my kids!)
But I am asking…I want to know, I want to change, I want to be more and better.
“I have set the Lord always before me; Because He is at my right hand I shall not be moved.”Psalm 16:8
I hate reading verses with no context. But we are going with it today.
Right Hand Man
Now I get what having someone as your “right hand man” means. The person you depend on, confide in and approach at least some aspect of life with. I get that. And that’s where I’m failing here with God. I am definitely not involving Him with every or even many of my daily life activities. I don’t consult in Him for sure, I lean on myself WAY too often.
I also understand what it means to put something else before me. That, I have done for most of my adult life…ie kids!!! And in that case, it means looking out for them first, putting their needs first. Get that, do that naturally, don’t even have to think about it.
But I’ve never thought of God that way. And while He may not have the physical needs my kids do. His word makes it very clear His desires and needs from us. The Bible tells us that God’s very clearly what He wants from us:
“You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.”Mark 12:30-32
Now I have to put this in human terms because it’s the only way it makes sense to me. And bear with me, I’ve been a single mom for just over 13 years now so going way back here.
Remember when you first fell in love…how you just constantly wanted to be connected to your love? The early more texts, the late night phone calls, the check ins through the day? Sharing events as they happened? Getting advice on big and even little decisions?
Yeah, all that. That’s what God wants from us…constant thought and communication. Constant connection!
Yup, I’m failing at that…100x over! On a daily basis.
I have to come up with some way to live a more God centered life. Make Him my right hand man and put him before more…way more than the once a day that I spend time on my devotional. Suggestions?